writing.
today is sun.
sit on bus.
In front of.
alignment. is nice. wholly.
it is bad only at it.
holes. and in the mood for. throw.
Prick. on my leos.
Burn.
Scan.
It looks like shit to me.
a thing about bins.
.
I; love less
burgundy beret.
I watched taxi driver and i didn't like it because they shoot people.
It was good.
Nick said people like to see faces that they know even if it is after a few years.
Alec came to london.
Ant slept on a sofa and was sick.
I went to Camden town to visit my housemate.
No longer need candy be mute.
Thank you children.
All these wonderful things.
They're very precious.
I'm afraid other people wouldn't appreciate them.
Why not?
'Cause other people don't see things the way you do.
not go to kung fu.
not go to selina.
go to cinema?
things you are interested in . I'm interested in the simple that people what is it that they like? everyone . the view of what. people like adverts. what do i like about them. what is like. Beauty. Kant. aargh. plato. all the philosophical. write about theorising but i don't wan tto agree with. without evidence that one must have.
Life and performance. Stacey told me a name. the difference.. Identity. A man that rob stone or stewart martin said performance. life is a performance and that reality. there is know acting. It is all true performance. What you do is what you are? Just different parts of you.
I went on a 'date' to star trek. I like the bit where the kirk shifts the model replica in his hand making the dust fall off. His dad died on the 'real thing'
we went to a bar and the dave i was with told me that Brian hadn't aged well. Dave went to the underground and I went to another bar. I had strongbow. And water. Brian didn't want a drink I offered but Louis seemed happy. I talked to some chinese men and then sat in a corner with a Dave from Boston. He liked how I knew some American terms.
'dave. went on a date. dave. dave. dave. don't run with scissors run with knives dave who i sent a picture. to. dave toule. dave hyde. incest is my fave with my uncle dave. gay dave. dave hay on quaker oats. dave moxon. dave.
dave deleted me .
I know what I want to do . language. libbly says clinginig into it and runningl. claire texts and i understand it more than life.
I get frustrated about all the learning. Can we not read it and learn ourselves. do it yourself. What is the question? Can we learn ourselves from witnessing the works rather than all the critique on it. . Why do people put on the labels and stick and make it so i have to learn what words like performance.. .. surely the way the work is shown . elements. tools. we can use all of the parts to create an experience. the one of performance is one we can hear. when we read words is there not a multitude of different voices and styles? so why do i always have a that it doesn't really matter attitude. that is becuase there is nothing more than moving objects words and . the same things and enjoying it. aww, i'm happy now. now then death.
work as in paid.... or University pain?
celebrating the lack of ambition.
you don't have to do anything special. Not benefit frauds.
just enjoy it.
love it.
a man that is warming. breathes
where's your work?
pointing at words. carressing the books with no windows.
milton. yes. watch.
i was talking to marcus and that if you push you could get there but that is not my ambition.
Mine is to do it. satisfaction.
what was i going to say? it was suvi and blues.
how do you decide which tools become objects and aesthetics.
a list of quests.
ions and anions.
sees me how i wish stares with smile.
it's a mark though not a Mark. Simon then camera then laptop then eyes then pencil paper brain. a link that I like drawings and that perhaps the people i draw from are important to making the pictures. I like the looks. i like the looks. it's the look that i like not the drawing but.. the drawing is not the bit you see. the drawing is the performance process. feeling the look and feeling the look. the physical act is just a tool for seeing.
write what things are.
(graphite HBpencil and paper 96gsm A6 105x148mm) sat 30 may 2009 0023
i did five hours of drawing.. until 0300.
i rubbed trudy out
it looked like her and now it does not.
reminded me of looking at auerbach portrait that took ten years.
I thought to see richter portrait show that finishes tomorrow. I feel like maria will call soon. I'm starting to feel happier about drawing. but not what to draw. just do it. it feels better. time. determination. the object is not important. it is the seeing. conor harrington.
this is the line of how i gallery.
there is no interest. you don't need to be. it comes easily enough, just see something. then walk around it and hear what people's prescence do to change the experience and the objects change.
how we align but not alltogether wholly.
allign.
moist.
i missed horn.
Doug wears blue jeans. Dante says he looks cool. Dante says I am cool because I think I'm cool.
Matt watching tennis talking about dreams.
Are you going to Uni, goodbye.
two stupid bitchess that .. fu.. dickhed!
two stupid bitchess that .. fu.. dickhed!
I got a message on facebook from Alex. determination. is that something i have? dante said it and i think it would be. I wanted alex to add to the book as like what reichard hamilton dieter roth book i saw. conversations and letters like claire writes s but more linear and rigid. . In my head he already red what i had written so it makes sense to give it to him even though the meanings are lost . there are no meanings but there are. You don't have to get it.
A Alex
i text because he text in the other week about a drink at lunchtime. then people jump onto words. It will be funny if it is the same kind of thing when i meet for drinks people of before.. like they expect me to say something. I have nothing special to say.
I liked to write the text but it makes me a little angered at myself because i don't read the books and don't do the writing that i thiink in my head i will do but i do like to sing about the frustration al0ng to 'frozen' ;madonna.