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Blogger matthewrandle said...

i already heard that you saw awjs and wicqure man.

thans for your blog help. I had a fun shopping experience in burger cing. A man wanted his breccfast and the manager said that it was not the right time for breacfast even though the man had a voucher.. the volume got oincreaseing increased to loud and louderish.the man wanted his brecfast and burger cing was all lies he said.it looqued lique the manager was going to punch the man but he didn't. me and my friend and the other customers and the other staff tried not to laugh but it still happened. I bought my friend a whopper meal. I ordered coque but my friend dranquit...well i thought she had because mine didn't tast lique the real thing.. i thought it must have been the diet variety that she ordered. two more of my friends arrived.. one had just found a house.. the other later bought something that tasted meaty from a chinatown shop.

17 August 2008 22:57


I just realised the money that i allow myself only to spend cash is £10 , £1 , £0.10 and £0.01 it made me laugh and thinq of the big empty.. when i was writing that i called it the blue empty first.. i heard me laughing from my nose. i could or should or both have used myself in the previous sentence but i didn’t want to. I lique that lclaire told me that she liequeds how i comment on my wonwown own writing as it hapensnp happensl.

i just smelt tate cups and thought of dieter roth.
I put ash on for the first time... the band. girl from mars. I lique it .. perhaps because it sounds lique how i play the recorder. i bought it because i had heard the name before and i liqued the green face.. richard says it is good. so far.. i agree. i ceep thinqing of peanut butter.. could be because i had a peanut m&m and another one and because i had 4 jars from leftover residents of peanut butter or because Dieter R used foodstuffs or the taste in my mouth or peanuts at the pub or that butter is 1 of 2 items in the fridge in the room i am sat in, actually crouched in. structure yes or no@£. booqs to be published .. structure i mean foormula theme. .. it said in an article i read while in the toilet room 3 august culture magazine. another one i read said that one extreme is to say 2001 plan3 crass tall buildings is art.

repeat.. rhythm sounds my mind thinqs of how sam describes spanish flow.

‘My practice relies heavily on the work of others. I write about my pears and take great pride in being asked to help them with their work. My practice uses blatant and obscure reference and quotation to build up a grammar and language of memes. All the images and quotes I use are my influence. One might ask how it is possible to make new work steeped in someone else’s visual form. But I would like to believe that through my mere use of the work something has changed, something has changed in this new work and the original. But I would not say that I knew what the change or influence is. This is where my practice takes on a role of investigation through experimentation; What is a quotation, what does it mean to quote? I do not look at find an answer, but to better understand the question.’ it said that on richard’s page.

booqs are heave

I looe .. oops .. that’s the tshrt i wear. looqd ..it maecs me thinq of duchamppppp. let me start again. I looqd in the art booq. the ppictures seem looq soo different from the last time i looq saw bacq ni in my secondary matchavs. differnetn. and i love dine. love liqe how i hate yellow.. it doesn’t affect me. i do lthough enjoy the way it describes cy and that i’ve seen a similar image in the tate modern and it was in a big room. deliberately it says.. not foolllowing tradition and comos. cos mos compposition cosmopoliton.. one of those. Yesterday I saw life on mars episode 1 which i did watch entirely. much fun in my brain . thinq and death and do life and yes.
Cornell boltansqui. basquiat baselitz flavin turner bacon...i thin q it is because i’ve seen some of the stuff and tdoing indeed artp {i want it to be art with a p} also p art and part .. p art is the booq in the slade ma show.

i read a book

I have read two books this year from the start bit to the end bit. Last night Emilybob read me Vegetable soup by Heinz as a bedtime story. I almost read the whole of draw me a star by eric carl. I liKe that one a lot. The one I was talKing about to start as in the title was recommendeded to me by simon read.. and someone in africa called him a yellow man. I was in the yellow group we had to write what we thought of yellow.. oh that brings me to the topic of this post... in a similar way to writing what we thought of colours we had to make collage about what the seasons were to us using magazine bits asian ladies and pens and glue while looking at the seasons paintings 8 of them by cy twombly. The book is called chroma by derek jarman. one of the leaders of the worksh90p was trying to recall the name of it to recommend to either one of the participants or the artist on hand.. Chila. well I was eavesdropping on the conversation as i had already been sent to lunch bbut i liked the task and came back for more.. here is one that i did...



perhaps it is winter or summer.. who nose at all. the other book i read was the wind singer by william nicholson... the reasonn i read that one is because i lookked through the bookshelves in claire's house and there is firesong...well i don't think it is there now because i took a copy of it and put it on my shelf.. that doesn't mean though that they have not another copy. I haven't read it yet because i'm still reading the slaves of the mastery which i read a few years ago but i wanted to read again but fear perhaps is lost in this mess room somewhere. simple reason... i try to read a series in order so start with wind singer. it was large print version.

well. back to the story.. i was doing this picture and heard someone saying about a colour a boo about book about colour and saying chr .. chro .. crhr. .. So I say. said. 'Chroma by Derek Jarman$' (Dollar is question mark because my key for question mark is not very working well today)

she said yes. Then Chila explained that when she went for the private view Derek Jarman at the Serpentine gallery that there was a very long winding queue outside.

visiting a house

one day I went to a house. Libby answered to the sound I made on the door. Now I come to thinK about it .. it was a Sunday afternoon or more perhaps an evening. 2 men were maKing doing ping pong balls and coathangers into new objects. To make the story more believable in my mind i put in a picture. Me and the gentleman shown had a talk about what it was to be writing things or talking about things that happen. .. some might call it truth. I said that i'm finding it difficult to write things that don't happen....so i'm finding it difficult to create a fiction story.. it's fun though and will just base it instead on some reality that i see.


I need to get some help because the man richard told me some names about what it is to have a glaze over your eyes only
not quite.. he talked about a feral child and language but that was later. I mean to put in some talk here of what I read somewhere.. i think it was froth on the daydream.. one creates.. in the mind or elsewhere.. and it is true. .. I want to put the names here that i was told of what something like this is called and the other way of looking at it.

30april2008-today

There wednesday 30^th april. there were no elephants on the wall. i went with richard and alex and nick and hayley and becky and claire on the bus. It was a journey and we walked to a house alexandra  park road. Writhe. Lulu wants me to model for her but i want to go to a recital of danielle. Marco wants me to go to camden but i want to go to a recital of danielle and do some writing and organising and perhaps watch a film at the same time with music. Michael makes omelette. that he says should use 2 eggs. I was looking for names in my text , my 16 page text that i displayed with my work. Hayley Dixon was looking for names. They went to the wall she is using for the exhibition which should happen tomorrow. I feel bad. I think sam is lovely but I can’t seem to get more into it. I like friends more. anything more feels strange and I don’t like that the time thing, there are lots of other things that I would like to be doing rather than sit stand lie sex. Whenever I do something like write or paint or draw or talk.. i want to do more of it or something else. THat makes me smile but it is frustrating. right this moment I want to paint on some canvas thing for my sister for someone else. I am sad that claire will not be there for 13, she has an exam. I want to learn how to frizbeee> i am not a wadhamite. I think I would like to be. I was talking to someone the other day and I like to look and be critical of the works on display. I amwas shocked at my reaction to some of it..explanations and how it is hanged or not. I would talk about relationships with people, some are just easier than others. most comfortable seemed to be at last night with the fine art students. makes me say what I am thinking even when I don’t usually even want to believe myself. aargh. I mean.. not what i’m thinking.. what i’m feeling perhaps. Is that right. I tell and talk what is inside.. not all the stuff that one can think around an issue to hide and disguise. I want to see now tomorrow the film that Michael has made using the models and cameras going in and around. I painted the floors and the walls and it makes me happy the social situations instead of a pub or and club that could have happened otherwise. Brendonan talks i’m not doing it for anyone but myself. perhaps this is right but i like to make others happen the happiness too. that makes me happy. so not entirely for myself. I seem to have that conversation with karl before lots.

 

I should have a break. from form ofrom. It’s just a bit of foil from the tea thing, libby. coffee stirr, me. I’d be in the middle somewhere masculine feminngingign. attractive people.  the tea thing.pull and stretch does viv. He wants it all his way. These two films i’m gonna show you have been proofed twice but i want to proof it again. the tea thing does alex does. viv leg wobble.  This place is an entirely different atmosphere than the canteen thing. there is a speaker and mny eyes on him though they are just sitting and standing. he is not addressing them.. just one person.some eyes on my ike they are all waiting for it to happen. Fuck shit!! 8f88**8 (with one syllable) a short film by ufuk gokkaya. I think he could be the guy who is sitting next to me.

 

 

 

Names. People love names. holy. too much attention . fac3book. love it. make sm me lauhg out loud in the real sense fo mo. yummy . hahahaha. lists of names i made many lists.

Guy sherwin.

 

i missed it.

i would say to richard that it was like if i fancied some fish and chips but someone offered me chips. I wouldn’t turn it down.

 10may 2008 today. Yesterday, Ten then gate.

 

 

jewellery I liked the plastic doll rings.

The common room now. i want to use my phone but cannot find the memory card adapters. I have two but can’t find either. I sat in the garden and put sticks together while lisa and melissa wait for bus van to the science museum.

Today i wanted to relax mostly and do some work of write and tidy the room upstairs in the sky of trent park. What will be the living situation for me in the coming few months. I think today some washing too and dr who. I drank some water and ate some muesli. is there a clock and piano there or here on a public building. . I brought a pice of paper down to the cmmon room.  . I want to work on the bar at the thirda year show on thusrssrsday on the third ayear show. I will wear a white shiret if i  go. I want to go soh shopping  tomorrow fo for fruit and food. . He beat me at bowling which is not great. Hoome is strange thing. I can’t tell really what where who it all is. so many people.. it feels like suvi and claire and rosie.. and lists and my family. How confusing.

 

I find steph and she is watching harry potter next to me. She doesn’t want to move in with jooel. I don’t want to rush into any new accommodation in the next few weeks . i would ideally like to wait until july and august as my room is rented until the start of september. I might go and read some books. i am annoyed aaargh annoyed that i have library books and fines. I need to go to the bank and get a job too on monday t. that will be he day. i should do some washing too. what do you think of your slelelelele/s/? steph is back on monday. I just got some pepsi. Steph’s gone sex. I fell asleep in the commond rooom. I would have liked to have gone to a cake viva cake but i don’t think i’m up for it and money is slim today . oh well. perhaps another time. I think i saw plenty of those fine art people anyhow... also I’ll be seeingt them hem on thursday. Step

I don't think.

wise words do not happen. 

Last week I had a spell writing at www.mattwithak.blogspot.com

I hope that it will not continue.

Can you help me organise this please?

It's wednesday

and I don't think that I've kept up all my thoughts on this blog thing, well, those which have been good to share for me. I talked in a bar and realised that this was here. I had a strange feeling of emptiness as there were no images that looked like they were trying to represent elephants. I want to put more images of things i've seen and done and and.. here but now is time for food.

the crisis of the real . Grundberg. I found some sheets that seem to be photocopied from somewhere else. I took them from the bin in the library. I recognise many of the names printed on the paper. pollock. Marx. Jacques Derrida. Paul Cezanne. Kenneth Noland. Freud. Steve McQueen.  Cindy Sherman. Rosalind Krauss. Robert Rauschenberg. Picasso . Rothko. Merce Cunningham. Mies van der Rohe. 

I'm still not very good at reading. A list of names I saw yesterday got put on a wall. This is a photograph that I took of a young fine artist at university stood by her work i made a list of names yesterday too.